(Monday, November 17, 2008-)
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i will change myself.
till the point where,
you'll feel safe enough,
to accept me.
i will protect you physically with all of my being,
and i will protect your heart and your feelings,
with every bit of change in me.
i will change,
to make sure,
to ensure,
to reassure you,
that you'll never ever feel the pain you felt,
when you were with me from 11th of october 2007,
to 11th of october 2008.
i'll change.
i'll never let you feel hurt again,
never let you feel caged up again,
and never let anything else come in between us again.
i know you can take good care of yourself,
and all i want is to exist alongside you,
to take care of you all the time.
i wont pry into your private life,
i wont go all posessive over you again.
i wont make the same mistakes to hurt you
like i did before.
i will show you,
that in this one month,
ive changed.
and right now,
i'm more then ready to take care of you.
this time,
it isnt an empty promise,
neither is it a childish act of desperation.
it may be true that i love you and i want you back by my side,
but right NOW,
its the end of the a levels.
no more commitments to studies,
i wanna commit myself to loving you,
i wanna commit myself to getting you to love me,
once again.
no more jealousy,
no more idiocy.
just love,
pure and simple as that.
i still cant get over the feeling of holding you against my chest,
and i cant forget the sensation,
that emotional rush i felt,
when my lips touched yours again,
after that horrible five weeks of emptiness.
i wanna spend my holidays,
with denvers,
with nick and gang,
and most importantly,
with YOU.
if it were possible,
i'd want to work with you,
i'd want to go shopping with you,
i'd want to do everything with you.
you mentioned toughening up,
be myself,
and ive thought it over.
its because i AM myself,
therefore i allow myself to show you the tender side of me,
the side which is very emotional,
and very easily affected.
i see no reason to hide this from you,
for my only tender spot,
is you.
you were the only girl that managed to dig up this side of me,
and you were the one to change me,
from the old indifferent and unsociable me,
to the lively,
crazy person that i am now.
and im very thankful for that.
you moulded me,
you changed me.
although some times,
it gets too tough for me to handle,
but you know,
deep inside,
pride doesnt matter to me anymore.
i'd give up anything in my life,
just to be with you.
love transcends all boundaries,
especially anger and pride.
you taught me to control my anger,
control my temper.
if i hadnt fallen in love,
i'd probably be somewhere out there,
violent, hot-headed and abusive.
cant imagine, eh?
you were the one,
who changed me,
who was the only one who could affect me to change.
i love you rachell tan siew boon.
i pray with all of my heart,
that after my paper ends tomorrow at 9am,
all of this will blow over,
for i am willing to change,
for i will never hurt you,
ever again.
for that,
im willing to give up everything that i have,my babygirl.
snuggle up to me again sweetheart,
i love the warm feeling that overcomes me,
the moment your heart connects with mine.
and once again,
only you are capable of giving me that feeling.
no one else can.
some may say im hopelessly in love,
but i prefer to say,
ive found the one i wanna live with,
from now until forever,
and never get tired of her.
i pray,
the day when i get to hold you and kiss you again,
the tears will come.
for it is only through your loved ones,
that you can release the emotions,
bottled inside all that
crying without tears.
only you can,
open up my heart,
like no other can.
till the point where,
you'll feel safe enough,
to accept me.
i will protect you physically with all of my being,
and i will protect your heart and your feelings,
with every bit of change in me.
i will change,
to make sure,
to ensure,
to reassure you,
that you'll never ever feel the pain you felt,
when you were with me from 11th of october 2007,
to 11th of october 2008.
i'll change.
i'll never let you feel hurt again,
never let you feel caged up again,
and never let anything else come in between us again.
i know you can take good care of yourself,
and all i want is to exist alongside you,
to take care of you all the time.
i wont pry into your private life,
i wont go all posessive over you again.
i wont make the same mistakes to hurt you
like i did before.
i will show you,
that in this one month,
ive changed.
and right now,
i'm more then ready to take care of you.
this time,
it isnt an empty promise,
neither is it a childish act of desperation.
it may be true that i love you and i want you back by my side,
but right NOW,
its the end of the a levels.
no more commitments to studies,
i wanna commit myself to loving you,
i wanna commit myself to getting you to love me,
once again.
no more jealousy,
no more idiocy.
just love,
pure and simple as that.
i still cant get over the feeling of holding you against my chest,
and i cant forget the sensation,
that emotional rush i felt,
when my lips touched yours again,
after that horrible five weeks of emptiness.
i wanna spend my holidays,
with denvers,
with nick and gang,
and most importantly,
with YOU.
if it were possible,
i'd want to work with you,
i'd want to go shopping with you,
i'd want to do everything with you.
you mentioned toughening up,
be myself,
and ive thought it over.
its because i AM myself,
therefore i allow myself to show you the tender side of me,
the side which is very emotional,
and very easily affected.
i see no reason to hide this from you,
for my only tender spot,
is you.
you were the only girl that managed to dig up this side of me,
and you were the one to change me,
from the old indifferent and unsociable me,
to the lively,
crazy person that i am now.
and im very thankful for that.
you moulded me,
you changed me.
although some times,
it gets too tough for me to handle,
but you know,
deep inside,
pride doesnt matter to me anymore.
i'd give up anything in my life,
just to be with you.
love transcends all boundaries,
especially anger and pride.
you taught me to control my anger,
control my temper.
if i hadnt fallen in love,
i'd probably be somewhere out there,
violent, hot-headed and abusive.
cant imagine, eh?
you were the one,
who changed me,
who was the only one who could affect me to change.
i love you rachell tan siew boon.
i pray with all of my heart,
that after my paper ends tomorrow at 9am,
all of this will blow over,
for i am willing to change,
for i will never hurt you,
ever again.
for that,
im willing to give up everything that i have,my babygirl.
snuggle up to me again sweetheart,
i love the warm feeling that overcomes me,
the moment your heart connects with mine.
and once again,
only you are capable of giving me that feeling.
no one else can.
some may say im hopelessly in love,
but i prefer to say,
ive found the one i wanna live with,
from now until forever,
and never get tired of her.
i pray,
the day when i get to hold you and kiss you again,
the tears will come.
for it is only through your loved ones,
that you can release the emotions,
bottled inside all that
crying without tears.
only you can,
open up my heart,
like no other can.
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