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i just reviewed mr stitch and yes i think the lessons are fucking worth it hahahah.
im gna persuade nick to buy super nice prom clothes and then i'll make him wash his prom clothes right after his prom and i'll borrow it all for WHICHEVER prom i wanna go to hahahahahah nice kang melvin soh.
too much beer causes liver failure. i have no intention to die young, yet. so maybe i wont drink. or maybe i will. hahahahah emokids die young. eh lets be the emo DMNY. im gna name our band of friends that hahahaha no way you're gna change my name into something with K just to make it DKNY. King maybe la, but knowing wenhao cause i conveniently termed him as DICK, i'll get something like KOK.
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# cause with you, i'd withstand. all of hell just to hold your hand.
Fucking sweet couldnt resist posting. Anyway i finally printed river flows in you and its still lousy but yeah in the process of perfecting. Maybe 'll become a piano god haha.
oh and bryon is having is theory grade 2 exam tmr morning, he's still unsure about some stuff i tested him, but worries aside, im sure he'll do fine. All the best!
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love is selfish. If you're not selfish in love, you obviously dont love enough. 'M crazy about that show, but fuck the last ep is on mon, when a levels start. And 'm fucking sleepy i havent done a single shit for the whole day except cut my hair. Seriously its an ohmyfuck situation
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eh wtf why are my lessons so ex?! Yanzhang's is like 180 for 10 lessons, mine is 4 lessons 188 zzz. Maybe learning different things la, but still freaking ex. Like 41/hr haha i guess 'll have to reconsider again. Sorry andre :x
on a random note i had a weird urge last night and i decided to go down to do pullups at like 3.24am haha. Fucking weak!!! I finished 20 in 4 sets. Really must train up liao. Yesterday night listen to yan tok about the wonders of beer i really super tempted to try alot one shot sia haha. nabei if only my weight din drop. But since i slimming halfway i think cannot drink too much later jitao got a cb beer belly.
Haha see after a's got money anot first lol fuck fuck fuck. I really need alot of money sia. Rashes come back liao omg why exam always like that. And everyone is going for prom i feel super out of place la. but prom nid so much money plus spend money to let people criticize really is super wasted. dun feel like going shall go crash yaoyang's/nick's/wenhao's prom HAHAHAHA.
anyway, theartofmusic has moved! its at novena gardens(phew) which is much more accessible for me! :D
i know im not supposed to, but im tempted to. bleah.
lets wait for bleach and naruto at 3.30, it'll help me keep my mind off things
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must sleep at 4 am. now, who's nocturnal?
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www.theartofmusic.com.sg
where the fuck is united house anyway and how do i get there?
train to dhoby, walk for 390m.
THAT IS FREAKING FAR. BUT ITS ALL WORTH IT HAHAHAH.
i hope they'll put me under Stitch :D
yanzhang started classes at oschool like 6 weeks ago and he didnt tell me, asshole. but hahahahah yeah he's learning basic hip-hop. Chest dislocation, sounds like popping and locking leh. hahahaha eh so many courses how the fuck i pay for everything.
maybe i wont take wildcards alr hah. 162 + 180 = 342/mth. Plus expenses like impending genting and chalets and the many many stayovers, i have to get a job thats like freelance, and earns me at least 600 a month hahaha. given that i work only mon-fri, 30 per day. hahahah macs work whole day ah what the FUCK. once again, lets leave it to fate. If i got stuff to occupy myself with, i wont work. maybe just a lil. hahahah but yeah im looking forward to life after A's! cause theres only two options, moan and whine, or heads up and enjoy. hahaha eh both sound dull but its better then the exam im gna sit for in 4 days time. what the cb!
after a levels man, after a levels. OH WHAT THE FUCK why cant i teach piano? omg one month per student maybe 200? 3 students, 4 and a half hour a week, 600 fucking dollars. gotta thank my mom and dad again hahahahahahhhahahahahah.
guys, lets get wasted :D (without drinking and smoking fags) hahahah idk how we're gonna do that but i dont care. lets sit in the field and talk cock and watch the sunrise. who cares if its gay, we ALL dont have girls to watch the sunrise with, so who the fuck cares? hhahahahaha super high i think i'll rape one of you soon :D watch out faggots, im strong :D
you know, that that dont kill me, can only make me stronger? just like uchiha itachi once said, "you lack hatred".
hello, FUCK YOU ALL :D
p.s. i'm pretty out of my league today, pardon me hahahah.
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im leaving it all to fate. whats not mine will never be mine. let me never be lost ever again. i shall entrust my life into your hands, i'll never gamble with fate, for i know, fate never loses.
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(Tuesday, October 28, 2008-) +7:40 PM]*
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here's to you, if you understand chinese.
MC HOTDOG - 母老虎
1. get back erhu from vincent. 2. finish a level spec paper 2007 after econs tuition. 3. chem and physics after finishing (2) 4. sleep by 2.
i wanna finish at least 1 full chem paper and 1 full physics paper.
- i'm still here, call me if you need me. - if i cant even hold out till after A levels, maybe we werent built to last after all.
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TILL AFTER A LEVELS,
pussyface.
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Jonas asked, "do you love her?"
my answer is that if I love her and I want to change and carry on the r/s, even if it means hell for me, and like giving in all the time, i will do it.
Yes i do.
love outweighs anger anytime.
out of love, i've cleared everything.
i most honestly want to talk to you, and i feel like we should work things out before things get messy and complicated, please meet me for a talk and don't be so overbearing please. i just want you to know that i love you, and i'm willing to change, and love you even more. but please just have to listen to what i have to say, so we'll be able to understand one another even better.
i know my princess is waiting for me out there, i know she's the one for me, and i know that princess is you.
we may have many many problems now, but im sure that as long as you love me, and i love you, no matter what happens, we'll be able to straighten it all out.
till today, i still know we were made for each other. that wont ever change.
whichever guy likes you, whatever you do for him. However shitty i may feel, it all boils down to trust all over again.
Jonas smiled and said, "You only call when you need me." says: if you love the person, go for it Jonas smiled and said, "You only call when you need me." says: if not, then don't Jonas smiled and said, "You only call when you need me." says: if not sure, time will tell Jonas smiled and said, "You only call when you need me." says: that's the 3 simple steps
i love you, so i'll go for it. thanks for the motivational poster, i'll work hard.
im sorry for being over-demanding. im fucking sure i love you, ive asked myself that question a million times over. at the end, its always love for you, the unconditional love, that makes me grow as a person.
simply put, life is a process, and everyone should have had to experience depression and regret and guilt. we both had our fair share of it. If you could, i would like to have you back by my side, and re-live all the wonderful moments we shared, over and over again, minus all the depression and sadness. your motivational poster did hurt me, but thanks anyway. I'll take that as a learning point, in my journey, to become the person closest to your heart, that no one can ever replace.
小豬模仿黃立行"音浪" hahahaha he's an asshole :D makes the song uber literal he really goes and 晃 hahahaha i love him, so freaking funny ^^
stillloveyouthemost:)
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(Saturday, October 25, 2008-) +8:17 PM]*
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've lost everything from my life. The more you commit the more you get hurt. No wonder some only wish to recieve love but never to return the love. Nick yy and wenhao, thanks for being there for me almost all the time. I know you all have commitments too, but yeah thanks for standing by me even though i was an ass to you all in the past. Heres to you, my 3 best friends :) too bad la yy entering in jan, but its okay, at least 've friends now and nick's going in in april so 'm gna train up pass my napfa we're gna become super gay friends. Haha thanks guys, if not for you all 'd have died 2 weeks ago :) true friends are for you to keep. Thank god i actually have 3 of them :) all is not lost, at least i still have my friends! Haha'm happy again bleah i sound gay but wdv! :D
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if this makes you albeit happier sweetheart :)
Good afternoon Mr SOH YAN RU, MELVIN.
Your enlistment date is on 13-Mar-2009. Your reporting unit is TRAINING LIST BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE SCHOOL 1.
yay! if i pass my napfa i'll be in around 27-Mar-2009 :) and out by 27-Jan-2011 :D:D
more time with you is just too lovely to imagine ^^
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hello coonieju! :D
i brought you marshmallows today! :D and i had to rest like 3 times before reaching! though its not entirely cause of the distance haha. i sort of tried to shortcut ended up at some drain LOL. but yup she's happy, and so am i.
im kinda very worried about a levels now, dont know if i'll even pass :S but that doesnt matter much. For now, genting trip beckons! haha. i even sent a mail to the travel company. I hope all 8 of us (me, you, ting, jas, feipeng, tat, sean & yy) all can make it! 1 day in genting and 2 days in berjaya times square :D
genting 1 day theme park should be enough haha :) its just like ESCAPE theme park, but the thing is, at least its coldcold up there, sounds really exciting :D:D plus the long bus ride and so on, we'll all be able to bond like super well! And i tell you, berjaya times square is TOO FREAKING BIG. got too many things to shop already. Probably too ex, but i know girls love to shop, so yeah, why not stay an extra day there? And i swear, the theme park there may be smaller then genting, but its freaking cool also. Super roller coasters and swings.
haha we guys can go play you girls go shop :) and the hotel rooms there are superb there's even a gym there where we can work out at :D
The tour agency hasnt replied yet (of course since i sent the mail at 2.15am), but predictions are that we'll have to spend around S$500/pax. S$200 for the trip and lodging, 300 for our own spending and stuff. If you're a real saver like some kueh we know, then maybe it'll be S$300 total haha :) but whatever, its my trip before army. I think i'll take a loan from mummy and daddy. Pay them back during army :) Once again, i hope ALL of us can make it ^-^
LALALALAA im really hyper now, like going crazy. Cause you asked me to teach you piano, and the best thing is i'll get to see you everyday! I hope i can teach you smth nice before we arrive at genting, so you can make me proud of you :D You'll be able to play like the picture! *points* Whatever the case, i think life after the a levels is gna be damn freakin fun ^^ Genting, teaching you piano, wildcards, running, lose weight. WALAO SCREW A LEVELS I SHOULD JUST RETAKE NEXT YEAR HAHAHAHA.
AND OMG my waist shrunk. hahahahahahi hope this carries on! and if i dont remember wrongly, i think genting has this tobbogan attraction and the weight limit is like 65 or 62. The last time i saw it, i was like 70+ :X im gonna put that as my dream and sit that ride! Darling, you should try it, its really fun. I think its called Thunder mountain or smth. Its this go cart vehicle you sit in, and the rollers on the side roll you all the way to the top and so on. And there's gonna be roller coasters bumper cars crazy attractions ! :D although i think most of the time we're gonna spend it queueing up for the rides, but IDC! as long as i get to spend alot alot of time with you, i love it :D
Anyway, im really sorry i flared up yesterday, i just got really pissed about some stuff i feel we should not bring up. Move on :) I'll accept ALL of your friends and co-exist with them, so dont you worry. I'm still gonna pick you up on 19th nov, so yeah. Leave that day for me! Give me some time, but i've got a very bad feeling i wont be able to let go till the point i wont get jealous even when you go out 1on1 with a guy :S if i didnt feel anything i guess it'd reflect really badly on how much i actually love? aye haha put that aside, i'll learn as i go along. Theres really alot i can learn from this whole year with you, i thank you for everything, really ^^
Its almost 3 now, you've gone to bed already and im really happy. IDK why, but seriously when i see you resting well, taking care and/or eating well and happy, i'll be really happy. Even happier then when good things happen to me. Aye, but yeah its a nice feeling to be happy for someone, so i wont stop. Today when i got to see you, even for that fleeting moment, i felt my heart melt again. Its wonderful that i got a glimse of you. Makes my heart feel so much lighter. Now im regretting deleting our pictures. Now i know we wont get them back again, its so heart-wrenching :( BUT ON A HAPPIER NOTE, I BRUSH MY TEETH 6 TIMES A DAY EVERYDAY! but i think its the inside that's yellow. I'll just keep it up, hopefully i'll be able to whiten it as much as i can, get the whitening job when i got the money haha ^^
I have no mood to study i just wanna spend the rest of my life taking care of you :) Bleah why couldnt i have been born as your maid? Taking care of you for life, unconditional, not expecting any rewards and looking after each and every of your needs. If i were i wouldnt take the pay every month! :)
Daddy got me a necklace charm thing for good luck and it looks quite stylish i think it could be an accesory! :X you know, i hold it everyday and pray for you and me! ^^
Sorry k this is a VERY long post, uber wordy too! but its okay i really have so much to say :X Sorrysorry! :)
1. im glad we managed to stay so happy even though we dont meet :) 2. its true, absence makes the heart grow fonder. 3. i know you're not having good sleep, hearing voices and all that. Its cause you're too stressed and over-insecure. I pray sincerely for your safety. I'd give my life for you to be happy and i mean it.
*points up* guess why i stopped at number 3? i have lots more to say! but 3 is special. As in, the "3" in 3rd and "3" in 831 and "3" in its 3am now and "3" in <3 and so much more! ^^
i hope i'll be the one who can provide you with an entire lifetime of happiness and love, and never let you cry ever again.
P.S , i love you ju. <3 and i miss you an awful lot but im controlling myself.
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you should be very very happy that im so in love with her. if i wasnt willing to do everything and anything for her, i would have fallen out with her, and raped your sorry little cocky ass, a million times over.
"watch your words, i have my limits". i shall not bother to elaborate how childish some people are. they say taekwondo is an ethical sport, where peace is preferred over violence. hence the art of self-defence. picking fights so easily, all in the name of TAE-KWON-DO? you've disgraced the sport, very badly, not to mention maris stella.
do thank siew for everything, for she's been the only one protecting you, from anything i wouldve done.
i'll step down, as many times as need be. no matter how pissed or how much you decide to fuck-around, i'll give in. not because im scared, but because i love siew, and i want her to have no worries.
all i can do now, is treat you like you dont exist, for NSKs, are really not worth my time.
heres to you. count your blessings to have met siew, for if she didnt exist,you'd be dead and i'd be in jail.
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need to : 1. Have white teeth 2. Lose fat 3. Stay busy 4. Stop yearning. 5. Do smth about personal outlook 6. Plan genting! :D
hello hello 'm gna be going to my dentist tmr to see how i can whiten my teeth! Then 'm gna make myself more presentable so my friends wont be ashamed of such a friend like me! Cheer, run, gym and so on. And then, 'm gna stay very very busy so i wont long or feel sad about anything ^-^ lastly, 'm gna plan genting before i go serve the country! MUST ENJOY MYSELF cause when go into army no more friends :(
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i have once again, managed to cool myself down and removed the angsty post that would've made the dog look useless, once again. I hope my streak continues i wanna be a nice guy too hahahaha
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study hard. Never together but always together haha wtf syy and milk!
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it wasnt an accident to love. I swear. I hope its just that way, where stress affected us in all ways possible.
11am, 19th november, marine vista, catch you there.
- and tonight, its only you and me (3 doors down - here without you)
sleep tight.
I swear 'll make everything alright again, keep faith, my dear. Keep faith.
For now, PLS MUG LIKE A CB DOG! MUG LIKE A CB CAT MUG LIKE FUCK LA.
P.S. Your scene girl photos are rly pretty.
phone blogging give no punctuation whatsoever. sucks.
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'm here without you baby, i still dream about you all the time. -edit- forget all that anger of mine, i still want you. 'Ll be back for you soon. Dont forget me. To err is human, to forgive is divine. Dogs are man's best friend. Thats why its always the best friend who gets the girl. At least 'll try.
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bad headache, bad stomach, yellow stools, horrible fever. Hope eno helps. Yellow shit is scary. On a brighter note, you're really sweet! ^-^ you didnt need to, but you bothered to thank me for my care and love for you. Thanks that really made my day. Its unconditional, but that statement really really made me smile, and kept me going despite everything else that's happening. I know its no promises, haha but idc i wont stop caring till you start loving someone else :) 'll stay up with her tonight, it makes me happy just talking to her :) as long as it takes, i'll press on. I hope you dont find me irritating :(
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somehow, if i disappeared from your life, all that sorrow would disappear too. He's so sweet 'm such a burden oh well. I should disappear. You'd be happier, definitely.
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i'll be your best friend your listening ear the person you can always turn to the person you can trust with your secrets.
in turn,
you'll be my best friend my source of ranting the person i can always look for the person i can relate to.
for now, we'll be best friends till the day, everything clears ^^
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the storm is getting violent, everyone is confused.
but do not get sad or feel bad, when people care for you. for people care for you, because they love you. whether friendly or boyfriendly, this kind of care, must never be pushed aside. to know that people care, is a wonderful feeling.
when my guy friends ask about me, i feel happy. not that im gay, but at least i have friends, that really care.
i'll continue caring for you. i'll show you, you'll be happy with me, and only me! :D
:) :)
if youre happy and you know it, give me a smile :) please ?
but my love for you is nothing less than boyfriend love.
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tell me if you need me , for i'll be there for you.
but if you do not require me, i'll let you forget me.
i will return and leave, only at your call.
how long will i be at your beck and call? only time and patience can tell.
even the mere-est of nuances, can make love sweet again. the night is cold, but my heart is warm. for you bothered to leave that smile behind your message to me.
i'm but a mere shadow in your life.
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sometimes, i wonder.
if i did disappear from your life, would you miss me?
would you bother searching for me,
or would you just forget me :\
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GOOD MORNING! :) 'M doing physics now, but i really dont have confidence in any subject at all eh :x but never mind that, i find more pride and joy in loving you ^-^ i hope you have enough rest :) silly sweetheart! :D
just to let you know, 'll be your friend now. But here,you'll always still be my only love alright! Anyway, dont give up on the a levels, you've already endured till now. Just do your best, 'm sure you'll do fine. If at any point you decide you wna retake, 'm still always here for you, 'm sure i wont make it too. I dont mind studying another year! As long as theres you :D
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i'll stay up with you everynight if i can, just to make sure, i'll be the last person to wish you goodnight, to be the person who cared the most, and stayed up just to wish you a lovely night of slumber. i wanna let you know, i still love you the most. no one can ever take your place, no one.
i know i promised to put my feelings for you hidden away, and take them out again after the A's, but you know me. theres no way i can do that. all i can do, is care for you and be there for you as much as i can, and love you without being with you. we may have moved on, but i have loved you from the start. i'll never stop loving you, all i fear is the pain, the pain when i go to serve the country. and never get the chance to care for you as much as i can now. i really hoped i would be able to see you, you decline, but i know how you feel. it feels awful, but i hope, you'll miss the days you slept on me during all the bus rides we shared, particularly those long winding roads, where i held you close to me. i know that, i'll miss your lips and your lovely scent, after all that time we spent together. please let me see you soon,
i miss you.
i hope this will only be temporary, for i cannot do without you. life without you, is not worth living for.
i love you.
- i did not rip this off anywhere, it just came, all from the heart.
on a happier note, my aircon is on the rain mode , you know the water-droplet? and it feels so much like genting. i really hope we'll be back together again. i wna spend this trip, with you, my love.
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the dust has already settled, we're all ready to move on.
lets strive hard for the a levels, i'll be back for you right after that, i promise.
meanwhile, i'll still always be there, like you said.
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i read the lyrics of the song 'hero' again. I dont know if baby feels the same, but i felt very strongly towards every single sentence. Lyrics are down the page.
Baby, Would you cry if you saw me cry? would you save my soul tonight? Would your tremble, if my lips touched yours ? I hope you'll come hold me tonight .
:) i love you.
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baby asked me if i was feeling better! Omg 'm really happy :) at least darling still cares 'm really heartened by that.
on another note, I dont feel like taking care of myself idk why, probably cause i do everything only for baby. I dont think my parents even have time to care about my well-being, so why bother, haha. I hope she'll be fine by herself cause i think she'll only get pissed if i appear in front of her. All i can do is just tell her to take good care of herself while i rot away haha. :X
I fell asleep just now, and i dreamt baby told me , "ju, will you just take care of yourself for my sake?" hey i seriously woke up smiling eh. It was a really sweet dream :) if baby really did say that i'd probably agree and melt on the spot its too sweet alr haha. I hope i see baby soon, maybe 'll tail her someday :x
yes 'm desperate for babytooth!! :D
i hope she never gets to read this i sound so loser! :\
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I know i worry too much all the time, i know i think too much.
But all is because i love only her, and thats why this time 'm going to trust. And believe in us. I know i have to learn this the hard way, but whats to care if we truly love? Let the bearings of time take us away, let us run into each others arms when all of this is over.
The lark will never leave his cage, he will faithfully await the day, his mate returns, and spend the rest of his life only with her. In her absence, he will trust. He knows she will stay true to him, for all she needs now is space to breathe. He knows she wont go looking for other larks, for the other larks are but mere compliments of her true love. The lark waits in his cage, for the day that they will reunite and love like never before.
They say, in god i trust. I say, in her i trust.
They say, lean not on your own understanding, i say, lean not on your own shoulders, but lean on mine.
They say, no one is here by chance. I say, i agree, and we were never a chance encounter or an accident to begin with.
I cant stop myself from loving her.
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about the blogger melvin;
+ learn html
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+ whiter teeth
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